Back in the days~

I went to visit Chelsea today. It turns out she got stuck babysitting, so I went with her. Outside the house, I was hesitant, because I didn't know how the kids would take to me. And they were shy too, cuz they didn't know me that well. But in a matter of two hours, they really grew on me. The 8 year old girl was a very friendly outgoing type, so she took to me straight away. + she loved cats and making cat noises as well (they had a cat) so even more to bond over. Her 5 year old sister took a while to warm up to me, she was more shy. She even straight up said "but I don't want to ask her (if she wants to watch me), because I don't know her very well", which I thought was very brave of her (I would've never said that out loud when I was younger). But eventually she warmed up to me quite well, seemingly favouring me more than Chelsea at times. And by the end of it they were trying to stop us from leaving.

It was quite fun actually. Takes a load off your mind when you're hanging around with children, because they're carefree and you just play along with them. I find that kids are most likely the best human beings to hang out with. Best ones being around primary age. They can walk and talk and kind of take care of themselves, but they're young enough not to have their innocent minds corrupted by the ways of the world. They don't judge you by the way you look or what kind of background you come from, or what your grades are like. As long as you're genuinely nice to them, they will be nice to you (do unto others as you want done to you). And children won't lie to you to save your feelings or to get something out of you, because they haven't learnt that yet. If you ask them something, they'll give you a genuine answer, but not one laced with sharp poisonous words that hurt, they'll just tell it like it is. Something I think adults should be re-learn, I think.

I liked them. They were rather adorable, despite being quite loud at times. They'll drag you off to show you something really cool, or so that you can join them in their next fun activity. At random times they would like to ask riddles, most of which I answered correctly (especially proud of answering the cat questions, cat lady at work :p). And of course at other times you humour them by saying you don't know (but then I genuinely didn't know haha), like those really punny jokes that are so dry they're funny XD. At some point they even said "why do you know everything?" (because I answered most of their riddle questions like "why is the sky blue?" (o god the answer I could come up with for that)), to which I had a slight grin on my face because they thought I was smart. They were also easily entertained by pretty much anything we came up with. I did the "kiddie ride" thing with the 5 year old that my dad used to do with me, and she loved it. As well as the piggy back rides :3 (who doesn't love piggy back rides?). 

Being with them reminded me how much fun life can be if you make it so and made me reminisce about my childhood days a bit.

It's damn tiring keeping up with them though. Haha.

Go to sleep! *cue rant*

I forgot how much music calms me.
It may, just MAY, help me go to sleep.
At least I've developed the habit of turning the laptop light down so it won't shine brightly into my eyes and tell my brain to be alert (something I learnt from reading an article online :p). But seriously, I hated those days when I couldn't get to sleep whenever I tried to (especially during exam period >.<). It was painful. Tossing and turning for ages, to find that an hour has passed (I checked the clock, I know). It's better now, but mostly likely because I sleep quite a bit later than the required 12AM. Now I'm just browsing all the songs I'm addicted to at the moment and replaying them over. Even with facebook logged off, I'm still procrastinating sleep.
Then I go to contemplate what to do until time for camp. Because I am really bored. I feel like I haven't been doing much since term started, which I guess is to be expected due to uni and studies. It feels like half of the connections I've made have been dropped. It's like high school all over again. You know people and you occasionally say hi but you don't really hang out. What's worse is that I don't really try to change it. "If you don't hang out, you probably didn't connect that well anyways". It feels like my old friends are slightly drifting away as well. I barely see them through the term as it is, but when I try for a gathering, most of them can't make it. Mainly due to work, or family, or things that suddenly come up. I guess with friends like that, attendance is never for certain. I shouldn't blame them. Everyone's got their own thing going on nowadays.
Also feeling slightly pressured to find work. I don't know why. Maybe because it seems like everyone else has a job? Or trying to find one? Even if I find one, I don't think I can uphold it along with uni anyways. I want to do well in uni this year, I feel work will cut into that. But I still at least want to fulfill that goal of finding a summer internship. It seems so hard though. Like I don't find anything that's related to my degree. More proper networking and attending those career things methinks ("fixing up the CV is a start ~.~" -I keep reminding myself).
I guess I'm starting to feel a bit more sleepy now.
Time to go.
お休みなさい～ ^=>+<=^