World's lightest material desu~

I find this to be an amazing discovery, even though I don't do Chemmat or biotechnology. I guess it just makes more sense to me since I had recently been introduced to Chemmat stuff in one of my physics course. (Yes I'm such a noob XD)

Hope is restored

This year I attended HKESA singles' night, but rather as a host (as opposed to a participant :3). It was hosted at Kaze lounge and restaurant, which had a pretty good atmosphere itself. This reduced most of our work (like decoration and stuff). At the beginning of the week, we had a lot more guys than expected and even had to make a wait list, so we pretty much freaked out that we couldn't get the guy:girl ratio even. I felt even more useless since I, being a girl, couldn't get any girls to sign up (some PR I am). But by the end of the week, we managed to get a whole heap of girls (girls like to last minute things ae?).

We got there, we set up, and started the event. I even arranged the roses all pretty in a basket :D. To be honest we were a little pushed for time, since we started quite late due to latecomers, and there turned out to be a lot more girls attending than we had intended to (too much promoting ._.;;) that we had to get some of our committee guys to stand in and there were more pairs to take care of. My job turned from basket girl to showing the guys how to rotate to the different tables. Sounds tedious? Nah not really. It wasn't too hard of a job and gave me a bit of free time to mingle with the other execs/committees. It was a LITTLE disappointing that I couldn't meet many NEW people seeing as I wasn't participating, but I wasn't too bothered about it :3. Interesting how I had a whole bunch of guys come to me at the end of the night asking to buy roses, didn't think they'd sell so well (the length guys would go to to impress girls they're intereted in ae?). Although I ended up buying one myself, it's nice to have something pretty to look at~

Favourite part of the night? Making the promo video. It was great to be a part of something useful and was definitely good for a laugh watching the others put up a performance XD.

The night was a surprisingly great success :D I feel so proud to have such a great result due to all our hard work and effort. By far the best organised event yet, since everyone had pulled their weight and done what they were meant to do :3 (tbh I think it was because we had finally recruited our committee so we had a vast addition of good ideas and helping hands). After that night, I do see the possibility our other events will turn out just as well :). Very much looking forward to camp now~ ^^

Inner introvert's rant

I realised recently that I'm a real 縮頭烏龜 (for lack of a better word, pussy).

My job is to promote the group and their events and get people interested. But recently I feel like I have not been doing that at all. I dislike talking to random strangers, in fear of rejection, or that they will look at me as if I was one of those desperate beggars in China. Sitting stall has become tedious. Not just because it feels like a bit of a chore and with increasing time, my enthusiasm for the events decreases. But also because I'm not really fulfilling my role as PR. I pretty much stand at the stall, not really appealing to the students that walk by, because I don't know HOW. I constantly reject the other execs' requests of going up to random people, asking if they would be interested in our event, which gets me a reply of "you're PR, why aren't you doing you're job?" I even got a "how did you even get this job?" to which I replied "I don't know..." The committee does a better job of bringing people in than I do, and I feel ashamed. It may just be the event itself that's a little difficult to promote, but I cannot blame that entirely. Have I exhausted my energy and passion for this club? Am I just a terrible persuasive speaker? Most likely a bit of both. Either way, not doing a good job discourages me from wanting to promote because it leads me to think that I will continue to not do a good job. Feels like a bit like a vicious cycle.
The clear solution here would be to just pluck up the courage to walk up to strangers and talk to them. But it's not something that comes easy to an introvert like me. Add to that the fact I care quite a lot about what people think of me. Not a great combination for a PR is it? All I know is that I need to fix the problem and I need to fix it soon.

(and tbh, I'm not doing much in terms of helping the group either, so that just makes me feel worse...)
/end rant of self pity

Late night reading

It's a Sunday. The first Sunday of the second half of the first semester. It is almost four in the morning. There is uni the next day from 8-6. Why am I still awake?

Because I went blog browsing. Not the smartest time to suddenly go blog browsing, I know. I am actually pretty tired. Despite this, I have rather enjoyed my adventure through Blogger this fine rainy night. It's amazing what you can find when clicking the hyperlinks of interesting titles as you go. One title can lead you onto so many other different blogs. One click divides into two, which divides into multiple more other clicks. And the stuff you're exposed to. Words that exposes a piece of a person's soul with every post. It's fascinating. Especially since the blogs you've stumbled upon are those of your friends, old or current. Only it is from the perspective of a much younger versions of themselves, because many of these blogs have been abandoned. You would never think those words would be typed by those very people. Shows you a different side to them. I remember particularly this one blog I had been trying to find when she first told us about it. She even told us the URL name. But to my dismay, I could never dig it out (I'm not very good at searching anyways ._.). Now, out of the blue, I have stumbled across it, just by clicking interesting titles and moving through the connections of their authors. Overall this short journey has shown me two things:

1. It's amazing how small the world is. When you can find your way back to your own friends from a stranger's profile in just a few short clicks.
2. Each of these strangers have their own unique views of their lives and the world. And we all convey this view in our own unique way.

(I do believe it is time for bed. Apologies in advance any mistakes or incomprehensible writing, I'm writing all this with my brain pretty much half asleep.)

zzzZZZ~~~